I’m having a really hard time trying to find support for my weight loss. I’m OBESE. and no one cares. instead of encouraging me, they talk about their own progress/lack of progress.
my mom is the worst. she, as my parent, made me become this way. my entire life I’ve been eating like shit because I never had home-cooked meals or anything. my entire life I’ve been preparing food for myself (since I was 7). And what do 7 year olds want to eat? they want yummy stuff, and no vegetables. and thats what my mom allowed.
today, I tried pointing that out to her: that when I was hungry as a CHILD, I learned how to make maccaroni and cheese, grilled cheese, frozen pizzas, frozen burritos, waffles, pop-tarts, and cereal. I LIVED off of this stuff because my parents not only allowed it, but enabled it.
Its frustrating because I know this is where my ED came from. No one should ever let their child choose their nutrition, and no child should ever be left to their own devices. They will choose sugar and carbs, they will not choose the healthier option. So after years of having to take care of myself, I wound up harming myself and developing a disorder.
After trying to bring this up with my mom, she agreed: that SHE herself only really eats carbs, and then started going on and on about how SHE needs to lose weight and start eating healthy. Just so everyone knows, my mom is at a healthy weight, and I’m considered very obese.
I don’t know what to do with this frustration, how to conquer my ED, and how to move forward by living a healthy life. I obviously know what needs to be done, and how to do it, (diet and exercise) but I haven’t been able to do that my entire life.
I don’t know what to do.